I am in verge of cutting myself desperately should I?

No offense, but the reason you are cutting is pretty odd. Why would missing a coach make you depressed...and why would you cut over such a small thing??? I'm a cutter and lately have been realizing what a waste of time it is. I would say that I have a list of things to be depressed over, but honestly...one or 100...we shouldn't cut at all. DONT CUT because it's VERY addictive. Why put yourself through something that can last a lifetime...over something so small? You are going to meet TONS of people in your life and they are going to constantly be coming and going. It's rare when people stay friends for as long as some do. It's rare when you even ever see half the people you spent a great deal of time with. Look at what you are doing from another point of view...depression is something you cause on yourself...you are not a victim and you shouldn't be so sad over things. Pills don't work. You need to mentally get over each sad thing in your life. I spent my whole life being depressed and wasted such a great 23 years. I'm moving on and doing what I want to do (career wise and even with things like my hair and contacts etc). You have 2 options with anything...you can let it get to you and you sit and mope around forever or you get over it and find positives and even move on asap! Good Luck. You should never cut...period. Go keep yourself busy and not think about the depressing crap. Find things to engulf you that are happy. Look at all the positives. People who are beyond happy....STILL have sad moments and bad things in their life as well...they just don't let the bad consume them.